I feel so screwed today....Guess wat, im late for the NUS overseas College interview and i end up not going. Like my mom always say, i will nvr change. Guess that the reason for me failing in almost everything. My attitude need to change. Maybe thats one of the reason for my breakup. Haizz...was feeling fuck up today. I miss a golden opportunity. I need to change. If this continue i don have any future. Nvr even fast today. Go to sch but nvr attend anyting and str away buy a pack of cigerattes and smoke my way, thats how i break my fast. Was so stress up today. Even quarrel wf my mom. I just cant believe i wasted a gd opportunity. Got home and i just pretended that i fast..wtf..

The first is always the most hurtful....The memory will stick with u......Time doesnt make me feel better....Its been 2 plus year, but y cant i get over it....It thought i did but in reality im just deceiving myself. Im just stuck in time.... Y do i even care. If only the memory can be erase easily. Y cant i just accept the fact that it is impossible. The first is always the hardest and maybe the memory will not go off that soon. Just let the passing of time heal the wound, be it if it is taking forever. There is an old saying, the wound will heal but the scars will be there but it is up to us not to let the scars affect us too much. At least i know that now im in a much better state than 2 years ago when it is just fresh. Just that sometimes i reminisced about the past. Im letting my scars get the better of me......


Signing out
Salihin